Nine.

I went to the gym again today for about and hour and a half. It was so nice. And I'm kinda sore, so hopefully that means I did something good. I worked on my arms a bit too. Which I really need.
I took a friend with me. And that's nice because the whole time my brain was just thinking about how I could not let her out-do me. So she encouraged me to work out harder. I like the treadmill and the epileptic machine. Right now, I'm typing this, watching a movie, and stretching out my legs so that I don't get bulk.

That's one of the things I'm afraid of. Bulk. It's one of the reasons why I don't eat enough protein, because protein equals muscle, and muscle equals bulk. I want to be lean and feminine. Not Muscular and manly. Does anybody else feel that way?

Anyways. I work tomorrow. I'm not gonna be able to make it to the gym though. :(
But Sunday i will definitely get my ass over there. I'm afraid to weigh myself. I know I'm losing fat. But I'm also gaining muscle. Which means the scale could still possibly stay the same.
Ugh, I don't know which is better. The scale being lower, or my being skinnier. Because in my eyes, the scale tells you just how skinny you are.

On the eating side or today, I've done pretty well.
I skipped the oatmeal, had a small salad consisting of lettuce, cucumbers, a few croutons, with honey mustard dressing. Next time I'm gonna skip the croutons. And less dressing. I was able to say no to the cheese though.

I also hap 2 slices of pizza. I don't think the damage was too bad. I purged a bit of it. I also purged part of the salad today.

I know purging is bad. But being fat is worse. I'm trying to eat less so that I don't even have to purge though...

I think that's all I've eaten today. Which is great.

For the rest of the night, I'm not quite sure about what I'm gonna do.
I guess it depends on whether or not my mom makes dinner.

Drink wise, I've had water and diet coke.
That's good, right?
Tomorrow I'll try to have less diet coke. And I'll try to stick to water only.

Boy wise, I haven't heard anything back from the guys I went out with.
Whatever, some work out. Others don't.
I'm not gonna worry about it.
There's plenty of other guys I can go after.

Why go after them though?
I'll let them come to me.

That's not gonna happen till I lose weight though..

Anyways, that's it for now.

Isabella.Inspired