Five.

Tomorrow, I'm getting a car. I'm so excited.
Because when I get a car, I will have much more freedom.
I can be away from home more, so I don't have to eat so much.
And I can get a gym membership. So I can lose weight!

i weighed myself today, I'm about 7 pounds lighter than I was a week ago.
I don't really think I'm restricting.
But I have been purging.
I know, I know. It's bad for me.
But hey, I'd do anything it takes to lose weight.

I want to lose it NOW.

I want to be a size zero.
I want to where extra small clothes.
I want to have to shop in the kids section.

I want, I want, I want.

And it will happen.

Just you wait and see.




Anyways, to day was an okay day.
I love it when we're busy at work, it means that I have less time to eat.
I need to start eating healthy stuffy.
Stop with all the fried foods.
No more french fries.

I need to eat fruits and vegetables, and drink water.

Especially if I'm gonna throw up. Or else I'll get super dehydrated.
But is it just me who likes the feeling of almost passing out?
The lightheadedness.

So, what's the plan for tomorrow?
maybe some salad, and an orange.
Some vegetable soup.
Maybe I'll let myself have some crackers with it.
And oatmeal.

Ugh, I always feel like I have to eat everything.
As if it won't be available to me later on.
I need to stop that.
I need to get control again.


Blah...

Isabella.Inspired